If you’ve read most of my blogs, they’re pretty much about a bunch of feelings and a fallout. I have had plenty of them in the course of 18 years, almost a little more than I could handle, but surprisingly I’ve been able to repair a good few.
One that is randomly occurring is one I absolutely didn’t think could happen. Not in a million freaking years and I just can’t believe that the way we thought the other person felt was exactly the same, but totally inaccurate.
A once before, two-year friendship is actually coming back together.
Which makes me think so many things, but honestly, we were just too young. Too young to know enough about ourselves. Too young to take on other people. Not saying we’re much older, super mature, and know much better, but we just know enough.
Enough to interact, enough to be just a little more civil in handling these past situations and I call this post Repairing because wherever my path took me, I repaired little parts of me. Parts that have worked on forgiving others and being able to be even more understanding. I’ve repaired those things and it now has brought me to this point of repairing a friendship.
I don’t know who says this, but I’ve repeated it and heard it plenty of times and it’s true. We have to learn how to love and care for ourselves before we can truly do that for some else. I feel it’s something we all eventually come across, sometimes just at different times.
If you’re reading this and have read my other blogs, this fallout with a friend is the fallout before the fallout I’ve been talking about in these blogs.
It’s unfortunate that sometimes there’s just wrong timing on who we are as people and who comes into our lives, but that’s why only time will tell.
I’ve solidified a few friendships and now I’m just repairing one that I’ve been fortunate enough to be able to come across again.
Sometimes I like to say that when we cross paths with someone, we do what we need to do in their lives and they do what they need to do in our lives and we move on to whoever else needs us.
For this friendship I am currently repairing, maybe we’re not done in each other’s lives. Maybe we still have some business to deal with and I’m glad you’ve made a second appearance.
I’m hoping this second time around is a lot better than the first, but with time, we’ll see.
Other than second chances in friendship, thank you for having enough courage to approach me. For being significant enough at one point to not have me turn away this time. For being open and willing to repair and rebuild with me. And for also being proof that I never really do stop caring about people.
Thank you 🙂
***NOTE: This post was written in the last two weeks of school, so what you’ll read is from the end of April to the first couple weeks of May.
One of the few names I remembered when I first came to Merced.
One of the few people who always made me feel welcomed.